Five Reasons I’m Insanely Happy This Morning
- The simultaneous O is not a myth.
- I had two of them last night, plus one more on my own (well… with assistance from Lucas).
- Orgasms cure jet lag! Who knew?
- Paris awaits me, right outside my window.
- I get to spend another day–and night, I hope–with him.
Him. Lucas. How strange that just a few days ago I didn’t even know his name. Now I’ve screamed it at a volume considerably louder than his neighbors are probably comfortable with. Although, this is Paris. Maybe hearing people shouting their lover’s name through walls isย like hearing birds chirp around here.
When I opened this gift from Coco and Erin, I thought I’d use it to write all kinds of introspective things about myself in it–and maybe I will. I feel like I’m learning a lot about myself, even though I’m not doing a whole lot of introspection. But getting to know Lucas and opening up to him is teaching me things I didn’t even know I wanted to learn. And I think I needed this. Yesterday was just…
God, part of me just wants to lie here and recall everything about yesterday, moment by moment, from our first stroll down the Champs to the cemetery to our lunch to the church to our dinner and first kiss and the first moment his hands touched my skin…our entire night together was pure magic.
The other part of me just wants to jump out of bed and get ready to go–how many minutes are there until he comes for me? I swear to God, I’m shaking–I can’t wait to see him again. When was the last time I felt this way? It’s like a dream! I’m all antsy and fidgety and I don’t even know what to do with myself right now!
Wait…is this even real? Am I crazy? This is so unlike me! But it’s OK, right? I’m allowed to do something crazy, aren’t I?
I’m dying to tell someone about this. I’m calling Coco right now!
More later…